- I can read quite fast
- I am quite smart
- People find me attractive
- I am in a happy relationship that has a future with someone who truly cares about me
- My parents aren't divorced
- I was raised in a very loving, well-off home/family
- I get to see my family pretty regularly
- I have a great rack
- I am gainfully employeed
- And they want to keep me around by promoting me
- I don't have to worry financially
- I can spend my money on things that I like/want
So today was Monday of my last finals week. Of course I don't have any sit down finals until Thursday but I did have 3 take homes that I have been working on all week end. Not to stressed about the finals but the fact that all of this is Final.
I have been in school since kindergarten. With first days, spring break, summer vacation. Now it is all over I graduation on Sunday and then the 'grown up' part begins. Which is excited but also a bit scary.
Well my parents already think that I am super stressed out about it. I am just getting hit with the reality of it all now. So only time will tell.
She is going to come to classes with me and learning about my school.
So totally scary that she is looking into colleges already.
Now I really don't like to say good-byes. Because hopefully people aren't out of my life for forever. i hate watching people leave, when I know that I can't stop them. I hate that feeling right after they leave, when your heart sinks because you are alone, they have gone, even if it is only for a short while you are without. Plus you never know if there will be a car crash or they will have a rare medical attack or something will hurt them and you will be without them forever.
This is why I like knowing when I will see someone again because then I know they won't be gone for long.
Maybe I feel so far away from people who care
Maybe I feel like no one cares.
I know i am crying
I know I am lonely
I know I am alone
I know I don't like it
Thus I should just go to bed hope it all pass as I rest. Tomorrow will be a better day. It should be. If not, I might just cry again.