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02 January 2017 @ 03:34 pm

So this year while a celebrated at the same place with most of the same people, I am in a new place in life. The 2 biggest changes are that I am now both a homeowner and a mom. The home part has been pretty chill this so far because after painting, we haven't done much. Have plans though.

The mom status has changed a lot of things. My body has been through so much but since I lost most of the weight the only signs now are the few stretch marks and the boobs leaking milk. By brain though is stuck on him. I am constantly keeping tracking of feeding/pooping and sleeping schedules. And if I am not with him, I want to be.

So my biggest goal for 2017, besides keeping kiddo alive; is to try and make time for me.

09 February 2016 @ 09:37 pm

I have been such a ball of emotion this past week. There was the first wave of OMG We are buying a house! Which got dashed by a phone call friday. We are on a path to still do it just a week after our initial plan and we lose a 3 day weekend to clean and paint and move. Also there ends up being a bit of a difference in our month payment. Not much but still. On the brightside we won't have to pay MD 5k whenever we sell/refinance/payoff the house.

Also there has been chaos erupting at my alma mater. I am normally quite happy to say where I earned my degree, even if it is a tiny Catholic liberal arts school. But the new president has been making bad choices. Getting rid of retirees health benefits, trying to cut students in the first month to boost retention rates and the big on is firing amazing members of the faculty. Including a tenured professor and the faculty advisor of the student newspaper. I actually had (if my memory is correct) both of these gentlemen for classes and they both cares about the community and the students.

I have been trying to collect my thoughts enough to write a message of support for them and voice my frustration and outrage to those that need to hear it. However I am having a hard time getting my emotions into words. But I am having them, just trying to process.

28 December 2015 @ 11:26 am

So we had decided that we wanted to get out of our apartment and buy a house. After a job switch for Kyle we narrowed down the area and started looking. Our current lease ends at the end of February. We have made an offer on a house and it was accepted. However,  the inspection keeps getting pushed back due to stuff beyond our control. Which is super fruaterating. Hoping we can get it done before the new year. Otherwise I will scream. Also I want to start packing but I am not sure where to start or how much energy I currently have that I can push towards it.

02 March 2015 @ 10:53 pm

So I have started exercising. Part of this is due to the fact that since I changed jobs I am not nearly as active as I once was.  The other part was a weighed myself and didnt like what number came up. So for the past month I have been engageing in some sort of exercise activity between 3 and 5 times a week. That is good. I am feeling better, happier, more energy. But as I told my husband while crying earlier I don't feel like my body has changed. I don't think I have lost any weight my problem areas llok the same and clothes still feel tight.
Logically I know that I should keep up and eventually I will see the change. But right now I am feeling so dissapointed that I want to give up. So I cried. I won't give up but I need to focus on little victories so that I can stay motivated.

02 February 2015 @ 10:47 pm

Having a job where you can leave early to take care of you, doesn't.
Having a husband who makes you soup for lunch and takes care of you, doesn't.
Having kitties who cuddle with you, doesn't.

So moral of this story is I have it pretty good.

04 January 2014 @ 10:43 am

which will stay vaguely criptic until I know either way. But if it comes through I will have some nice benefits and will get rid of one of the things that has been bothering me for a little while workwise. And if it doesn't it won't be anything different then what I am dealing with now. So nothing to lose.


also the fact that I can post on my phone cause I can type much faster on her then my tablet may actually lead to more postinf *gasp*

03 January 2014 @ 12:09 am

So in become an adult my love for snow has lessened more so being in retail work and more then just a minion. If anyone is able to drive on the road and may want to come in, I am supposed to be there just in case. Of course I am grateful that I do own my own car so I don't have to rely on public transportation. But now I groan if that beautiful snow that is coming down starts to stick on the steet and I cheer when I see the plows coming because it means that I won't be as worried about driving in the morning.


basically growing up sucks, I want snow days back

02 July 2013 @ 06:34 pm
So we are less then 100 days till the wedding and I am exhausted from planning. I spend the day getting bits and pieces done. Work on the registry, guest list addresses, wedding retreat information and getting passport info ready. But it was nice to get stuff done. Next big task addressing and getting invites done.
Fun fun
09 August 2012 @ 11:36 pm
Sometimes I get mopey and now I am trying not to eat my feelings. I don't want to drink my feelings. So I get mopey and sad and quiet. Then I go to bed so that I can just wake up on a new day and not be sad or mopey
06 September 2011 @ 08:43 pm
Really don't want to look at how long I have been away from the site. Since then I have done a bit, gone to Florida , actually celebrated the fact that I graduated, turned 22 (ye gods I am old) and made plans to go visits the boyfriend's grandparents in October. Did I mention this will be a trip to California. I know for some of  you that is old hat, been there done that. For me a big deal. Not so much in the traveling way but in the implication of said trip. Not that I don't already know but thoughts versus reality and all that Jazz.